This body is leaking with weakness. But shouldn’t that make the body strong? Since all the weak is being leaked. Then all that’d be left is strength or maybe nothing at all. BAH!!
Anyways, today was another ditch day. How fun! Not really. I actually had to go to the doctors for a blood test. They didn’t take out much, about 1 cup, 16 tbsp, or 48 tsp. But it was enough to make me dizzy again, only for a few minutes though. It felt cold those few minutes. The rest of the day was spent sleeping..so much sleep.

Not much time left eh?
Better start letting out truths. Better start resolving things. Gotta make things better before it ends.

Bye

(More from the back pocket)

Give me relief. Give me solace. Let me forget. Remember, I don't hate you, I hate the pleasant memories you evoke. Your ability to cause this bitterness by being so sweet. I'll look at you, turn around, there you are, at the back of my head. How can I make you go away without pushing?
I'll close up.

All of you.

Bye

(From the notepad in my back pocket)

This is so weird. It's almost like...I've really given up this time, like I've accomplished something by doing absolutely nothing. The feeling is so uplifting to not have such a heavy burden anymore. But there is of course that occasional feeling of remorse for my actions (or lack there of). Each time I look back, there's this wild rush of bitter resentment and longing recollection. Ah, these conflicting thoughts again, always making me toss around in bed.
"Have I made the right choices? Is there a turning back?"
For sure, one of the answers is No.
How can I be sure? Is there a quick fix? Or just any type of fix? Is there a reason to fix this? And what is 'this'? Why...?

Bye

Thank goodness it's over.

Bye